Alhamdulillah

Have you ever felt so free and liberated after finally finding that perfect someone who clicks. Like the whole package of a person just fits into your criteria. That feeling of finally having someone who you can be yourself with? This feeling, it's somewhat like an emancipation of some sort. Whereby I was once a slave, in disguised of all the pretty and expensive gifts, but thanks to a glitch in the almost perfectly calculated plan of the megalomaniac (which I really have to thank Allah for letting me see what I wasn't supposed to see), I got myself experimenting and water testing and here I am, emancipated and hooked to the idea of being with this very person, this underdog, this dark horse, this who-would-have-thought-she'll-be-with-this-guy?-kinda person. He helps to elevate me from blind to enlightenment - spiritually, emotionally and psychologically.

I'm not saying we never had our fights, we do fight and it's always because of the past. But then again, without the past, we can never be where we are now. We learnt a hell lot from them. Just need to be grateful. Even though I carry these scars with me till I die, the scars are there for a reason. I get to be more attentive to my own body's needs for healthy diet, exercise and hygiene, spend more time with loved ones, have time for self-development and learning new things. How I love doing the things I love - see places, play music, know people, be myself.

I appreciate and am very grateful to have these handful of friends and a companion to go through all the hardship and pain besides the neverending fun and laughter in life, and a family who supports and love me unconditionally even though I am in between jobs for more than a year. Thank you Allah. Alhamdulillah.

Next I will wait for UM to reply with positivity on my application. I have a feeling I will have to postpone my dream to study overseas because of the financial constraints that I am currently facing. No scholarships = no overseas. But that is alright. More time for me at home~ :)

Been a while since I blog after the scrapbook I made. :)

You'll hear from me in another month silent readers. :)