Note To Self

If you don't have supporters from your hometown, cast the net wider and you'll be sure to find that you're not alone all along. The best support you can ever get is from you yourself. Peace! \m/

Abigail Williams - "Into the Ashes" Candlelight Records

You

We did challenges after challenges

We defined this into something

We create memories

We painted old ones into new ones

Please dear self

Never suppress the old ones, reminisce but not too much

And I am sorry that you are in white and end with tears to someone who used to be special

But you are very much alive to me

So here it is

It's a long journey for us

Godspeed!

Here's A Toast

for a humble beginning of our story.

A Closure And A Beginning

I have hoped for the wrong person to be the light at the end of the tunnel. The result for that one is utter mess and absolute disappointment. I've been cheated and lied to for such a long time, that when the time needs me to believe, I cannot make myself to believe anymore.

I believe that every person who comes into the picture in our life is to teach us a lesson. And a damn good lesson it has been with him. I know it's easier to see what other people should learn, so here is what I think. I hope he learns that love cannot be bought with gifts and money. I hope he learns that even though he has the money and charisma to make money, if you deny and ignore the loving a woman deserves, you won't get to keep her because you're not treating her right from the start.

I think it was a big blow for him to be rejected and defeated to a younger stud. I am sorry, but things just cannot work out anymore. I am now ready to let the company go, and let all of the effort I have put in slide into the drain. I did try to keep things professional, as it should be from the start. But that still makes him unhappy, so I hereby resolve that it was a lesson learned, and I shall walk away. Deleted his contact information by accident, but it is alright, it is about time. Starting my life back from scratch, with the help from Mr. A. :)

And so far, I'm enjoying every bit of it. Alhamdulillah.

Disappointed

Men in my life are, in general, a disappointment and/or a failure. So I don't put so much expectations on them. Better for me to do my own thing and forget about everything else while I'm in this foul mood. Who likes waking up in the morning listening/hearing someone shouting at you and making accusations about your habits? Like as if you know my every move, my every step. Don't assume the effort someone takes because you'll never know the hardship she has to go through to get to where she is right now.